Necessary Evil

     Steroids.  They are the necessary evil in our life right now.  Necessary because steroids help prevent Sawyer's body from rejecting his new kidney and evil because steroids cause Sawyer to have unbelievable episodes of anger and rage. 

     Sawyer begs for food every five to ten minutes (literally).  He screams, says very hateful and insulting things, bites, punches, kicks and snaps without warning.  For his own safety and the welfare of those around him, there are moments when he has to be restrained until he calms down.  I hate those moments.

     I was looking back at a post I made on this blog the last time Sawyer started taking steroids, which was shortly after we found out his kidney's shut down.  He is expressing himself the same way now that he did then.   You can read that post by clicking here.

     This is a difficult time right now as we navigate through Sawyer and Karen's recovery.  Adding  steroid induced rage to the mix makes it feel almost impossible.  It's not impossible and God is giving us what we need to get through this, but it is a battle royale.

     Other than the steroid issue, Karen and Sawyer are progressing. Yesterday was horrible for Karen in the morning, better in the afternoon and horrible again last night.  I'll spare you the details of what horrible means.  Today though, she is doing much better.   Karen is a strong hero-mom.

     Sawyer had to go back to CHKD yesterday for blood tests and an examination.  We go for more blood testing tomorrow and we will be back in the clinic again on Friday.  Sawyer's doctor is keeping a close eye on him and his new kidney. We are so grateful for the diligence and expertise of his medical team.